Letting Go

I found that I was not able to move forward with anything. I was stuck . As much as I tried and prayed to move forward I kept getting pulled back. There were 2 steps forward and 3 steps back. I had to come to terms with that blockage, that anger, the resentment.

Sitting in church a few years back the Pastor was talking about moving forward lightly. That we could not move lightly through this world if we were weighed down. Fast forward 2 years. I was sitting in a new church with a new pastor and I heard the same message again. I knew I had to start praying.

My tears were flowing as I reflected over the last 18 years. I had been holding on to pain. I was holding on to pain that wasn’t mine to hold on to. That pain was unfairly put on me. I prayed for them. I prayed that what ever pain they had would be let go. That I would see them through God’s eyes. I prayed and cried silently, that He would help me to follow the path He wanted.

This past April, we had to make an unexpected trip to Idaho. Yes, we drove through a few states to get there during this whole “Great Pause” / stay at home phase. My sister-in-law was about to pass away. It just so happens that she lived 2 hours away from 1 set of my parents.

I asked my husband if we could see them since we would be so close. I had not seen them in over 2 years. We barely even spoke on the phone. I had prayed for a solid 6 months that we would begin to heal our relationship. It may not seem like much but being in their home felt like a comfort.

They cooked for us, prepared a lunch for us to take on the road the next day. They made sure we had what we needed. I did not want to leave their house. I wanted to stay and enjoy that time with them longer.

Take the time to let go of whatever is weighing you down. Others’ pain is sometimes left with us, but we do not have to carry it forever. Pray each day to live a little lighter. He is listening, sometimes we have to learn a lesson before we can move forward.